Today the light and dark, the sun and moon are balanced. Day and night are equal. Today is the Autumn Equinox, the first "official" day of fall in the northern hemisphere. From here until the sun begins its return in December, the world around me will slowly descend into the winter darkness. This year, I am not afraid.
So often in my life, winter has been the season I dreaded. Winter brought constant gray skies; forced time indoors; ice--a major hazard, given my lack of physical grace; and, more often than not, illness. Usually the worst of this was my annual bronchitis, which would occasionally turn into pneumonia. That was eclipsed by the health issues of last winter. I won't get into details today, as that is not the focus of this post.
Instead of fearing this winter, I am looking forward to it. I'm a looking at the months ahead as a time of quiet reflection and preparation for the rebirth of spring. Last winter's health issues triggered a journey for me--towards self-awareness, self love, and self respect. This journey has changed me, made me ready for the life ahead. Ready to bloom into the woman I am meant to be.
This winter will be my chrysalis, a time to get to know this new me before heading into the world. Now this is not to say that I will be hiding myself away this winter. Indeed, it is just the opposit. I intend to throw myself into new environments, pursuits, and hobbies. I also plan to reconnect with parts of myself pushed back into the darkness and near forgotten.
This winter is about self discovery. The next phase in my journey to me
Quote:
“I can't explain myself, I'm afraid, sir,' said Alice, 'Because I'm not myself you see.”
― Lewis Carroll, Alice's Adventures in Wonderland & Through the Looking-Glass
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